went back to st marg's yesterday. went with rach to pay for our stars, twenty five bloody bucks. then hung around a little and let the memories come back. the first change was the bus stop. the bridge that i crossed for four years, the bridge i got drenched on everytime i came to school in a downpour, has been removed. it has been replaced by a sheltered bridge outside the st john's gate. as i crossed the new bridge, i remembered the days of cursing while running across the bridge trying to make it past the gate before the bloody prefect turned up so another demerit wouldn't be added to my collection of ever growing demerit points. then going to the office to make the payment, yet more not-so-nice memories flooded back. the office staff greeted me like a long lost friend with shouts of SARAH!! YOU'RE HERE!!! after all i did spend a sizeable proportion of my secondary school days just waiting outside the office for mrs lee to decide seeing me now would not piss her off too much. and of course leaving the office more often than not either having to call my mother down or bring a demerit point form home. we went to the 4e5 classroom, which by the way, looks nothing like how we left it. tables are in straight rows, the floors are spotless. the paper boxes are actually holding together and containing files. the wallpapered noticeboard is gone. the pig sty style floor is gone. no longer is there a pile of unindentified textbooks, newspapers and newsweeks forming a mountain at the back of the class. no longer are textbooks and files strewn all over the floor, with loose pieces of paper flying around the class until ly or kirsty picked it up and threw them away. even that ugly garden in that tiny plot of land has changed. it is now a place full of potted plants. the only things that has stayed the same was the black dent in the whiteboard, and madam su's idea of let's-put-up-rubbish-newspaper-articles-that-no-one-is-going-to-read on the noticeboard. oh well. things have changed, and i feel kinda detached. but i did enjoy sitting in the middle of the parade ground with ms ho and rach, just talking and reminiscing. and while we were sitting in the canteen trying to finish our awfully chocholate ice cream, madam wang li started waving at rachel. when i turned around to face her, she almost had a shock of her life. apparently she thought i was rachel's boyfriend. why the hell would rachel bring her boyfriend to her ex-school(yes i know st margs will always be my school but i'm just trying to make a point here thanks)? oh well. i miss st margs. a lot.

sound of music is OKAY. props are fantastic, singing is flawless, but the adaptation is a bit strange. i guess i'm too attached to julie andrews and christopher plummer. but in the movie you actually felt the whole progress of the characters and the family, and the captain's and maria's stuggle to come to terms with their love. in the musical its like okay the baroness is gone let's get together and kiss.



how can love survive?? oh wait it never was alive to begin with. i know i'm not even a part of your world. i just live on your brief smiles when i happen to pass you in the hallways. one smile. that's all it takes to make my day.

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